Daddy's Girl

It had been a beautiful Spring day, May 4, 2004. My brother, Momma,& myself had gotten in late that night when we had the call that would change my life forever. I could sense that something was wrong Momma's voice. Then the words I feared came from her mouth, I fell to the floor crying & screaming. They had found our Daddy, he was no longer alive. At the young age of 34 he left behind a daughter & 2 sons. Every memory I had of us came flooding back to me, both happy & sad. My parents had divorced when I was 7 years old. It was a bad divorce, drugs and alcohol were a factor. I had a lot of hatred toward my Daddy for leaving us for a long time, although we always had a good relationship. Good people make bad mistakes, right? He had popped in and out of our life when we were growing up, i just got use to it. I battled with this hatred all the way up to my senior year in highschool. When that one phone call turned my world upside down my perspective changed. I soon realized it was mostly saddness that I felt during those years of uncertiny. I regret those years I did not get to have him in my life. Children need stability, reassurance,& guidance from both parents. Everything happens for a reason, only God knows why. Because of my past I am a stronger person, a better mother to my children & I love like there is no tomorrow. I will never have all the answers to this puzzle. I do know even though we may have sat on the front porch waiting for him and he never showed up sometime...he loved his children. We all make mistakes...that will never stop me from being a Daddy's Girl.

Juicing Day 1

Day 1 of Juicing was very difficult, no joke. When I woke up I had my hot lemon water, and fixed the carrot, apple & lemon juice. Mid-morning I had a headache and had to lay down. I drank LOTS of water all day, it seemed to take the headache away. For lunch I had a mean green found on the same "Reboot with Joe" pdf file on the link above. The rest of the afternoon I felt a lot better. My body was obviously going through the first stages of detox. I am a heavy coffee drinker, sometimes 2-3 cups daily.
Dinner: 1 apple
             3 cups of a leafy green (spinach)
             1 beet (peeled)
             1/2 cucumber
             1 lemon slice
I could only drink half of this! After, I made a smoothie from frozen blueberries, strawberries & a cup of vanilla almond milk. I plan to start moderate exercise in a few days-wish me luck! I will weigh myself everyday through this 5 day cleanse. Good Luck!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season full of family, love,& food! I am glad to see it come and go. With a new year comes new things, my new adventure is juicing! I've been doing a lot of research. I've found that the benefits are worth trying it out! I will be posting daily about the fast and trying new recipes. I cannot wait to start this diet...I hate dieting by the way! My goal is to juice for 15 days straight, and we may take it to 30 depending on how I feel. Please feel free to leave comments or questions about your experience! Also with the New Year I will be making changes to the blog. My goal is to mix my love of cooking, sewing,& our adventures of homeschool. I am starting basic sewing series next week, so have those machines ready! Each week we will start a new series of sewing skills, maybe I will gather the courage to attempt video tutorials?!:)Thank you all for reading my blog and being patient as I start this journey all over again. Blessings to you all! Tori

Unconditonal Love

When you get married you can get a shower first thing in the morning, eat breakfast, and be on schedule with no frustration.   When your first born is finally home from the hospital, you have little sleep, live in your pajamas for the first two weeks and are lucky to get a shower…sound familiar? It takes you a month or two to get a new schedule down, but you do because you are supermom. Maternity leave is up after two months, you’ve pondered the thought of staying home because you’ve grown to LOVE this precious time with your baby. You talk to your husband think and plan out what you will have to sacrifice for you to be able to stay home. The new house you want can wait for a while because the time spent with your baby you will never be able to get back.

You struggle sometimes to remind yourself you are beautiful and you need to have a minute alone. Crying is sometimes a daily thing either because you haven’t slept a lot that week or you just need to talk to a friend about a frustration.  Never forget to remind yourself you are doing what is best for you and your baby. Think of all the mothers who cannot stay home. Your life revolves around this blessing from God; it has changed your life forever. There is no amount of money that can replace those precious memories you will have for the rest of your life. Time has a way of escaping you during the day, the cooking, and diaper changing, and cleaning. You get a routine down and everything seems to smooth out.  Over time you come to a realization with yourself, this is the BEST thing I have EVER done!

 Mothers are natural nurtures; we carry them in our wound for 9 months. We feel every movement, and a never-ending love for our children. We will all have ups and downs as mothers, just enjoy the good times and remember the bad times are only trials. We all make mistakes; just try to be the mother, wife, and person God wants us to be in his eyes. Motherhood is an adventure all on its’ own. There is no job that can make you more emotional or stressed out in this world!

Much Love,

Tori

Welcome back to the blogging world!

What use to be my personal blog has now got a new look! I decided a week or so ago to revamp my blog, seeing I have not been in the blogging world since 2010...yea a lot has happened since then. So on to the good stuff. Why take the time to redo your blog you say? Well, I came to a conclusion with myself that I need to do something for myself every once in a blue moon. I wanted to recreate my blog and start documenting my sewing adventures again.

Since our first baby was born I fell in LOVE with sewing clothes, I wanted my own clothing line. Every spring, summer, fall and winter I get my notepad out and start to sketch. By all means it may look like chicken scratch to many, but hey I can read it and I know what it is right?! I set out to find the perfect fabrics for the kiddos wardrobe, whatever season that may be. Two, three, four months pass by and I may get two of the 10 outfits cut out. This is not how what I wanted, so I use it the next season. I know my fellow sewaholics can relate! So now here I am ready to share my adventures with the world or whoever is brave enough to sew along!

Happy Birthday Kaden Mark Ray!

Today Kaden our nephew is 4!!! When Shane and I met he was not even walking...time flies by so so fast! Happy birthday little man! We love you so much!
I made this apron for him to help his Mommy in the kitchen and Daddy grill!

Long awaited Pinafore Tutorial!

Things around our house have been CRAZY to say the least... I am finally getting around to posting this tutorial. I went by this tutorial and modified it some- http://http//www.thestuffilivefor.com/?p=50. I took one of Taelor's pinafore dresses and used it as a pattern.

Enjoy!

Tori